Invitation>>Eng Ser. Worship Team

Unbelievable...

Nora suddenly came near me, then sit beside me...

then she start to speak...

when she reaches, "Do you wanna join Eng Service Worship Team??"

I looking at her...was excited and glad, but at the same, my doubt came back...

will it be possible for me to join it??

my works was a lot...load...how am I gonna join them??

By the way, I think I'll have tuition class at night time which indicate I can't go for the practice...

But deep down, I know there a solution for all doubts and question marks, that's Christ...

Through He nothing is impossible...Amen!!

God, please open a way for me, if it's Your favour for me join them...

In You I trust...

God Bless You My Friends!!

God is good all the time.....

All the time God is good.....

Praise the Lord most high!!

old schedule

I'm back to work...

well...It was like dreaming once again,

I reported myself at Tuition Center...

and it was the same center last time I've quited...haha!

my colleagues was so amazed at me and smiled brightly at me,

shaking my hand with her lip moving, 'What bring you back??'

erm.. honestly and favorably lied nothing to u,

actually there was tremendous negative feedback and comments regarding the center...

and as for me, my own opinion,

I was more positive to accept it as a matter of politic and social disconnection between all parties that involved...

In my stand, I would comment nothing,

as long as I didn't hit by any waves...and I'm not the topic of their issues...

to admit I was a temper person....likely to inform you...hehe ^^

please don't test my patient!

And work was meant to orientate in that avenue...

since we are workers, wasn't it? our best to accomplish it without mess...

Just do what you should..

If you get paid back that shouldn't be,

have your stand and fight over it...

ermm...properly, you're advise to stay cool and be rational as possible...

No one ever blame you for it!

Though I had to admit that there's plenty worksheet to do,

but that's the work...

Don't think too much, it vary nothing,

instead adding stress and tension...

So I'll pray and pray or even when I start to do my worksheet,

keeping myself in great mood is another inevitable deed as it assure I won't halt it half way go...

While doing the jobs,

have yourself sometime to relax or listen to music...it helps a lot!

God, I know and knowledge that it won't be easy and certain,

but I lean it all to you,

believing and trusting that God will guides me always...

God throughout the whole life I wanna to praise you and glorify you more than ever...

Almighty God

Semesta alam dan yang bernafas

menyembahMu

Surga bumi sembah

“Kudus, Kudus Kau Tuhan”

Mengalir kuasa dari tempat tinggi

dari TahtaMu yang kudus

Engkau besar, Agung namaMu besar

Raja yang sungguh besar,

serukan “Haleluya”

All of creation and all that have breath
Come to praise You
Heaven and earth cried out
Holy holy unto You
Your power flows down from the highest place
From the holiness of Your throne

Almighty God
Thy name is so great o Lord
King of heaven and earth
Sing and shout Halleluya

Haleluya... haleluya...
Haleluya...

一個人生活, me???

葉子在窗外輕輕搖動

人行道沒有行人走過

鏡子裡的我很不像我

自從你離開了我變得很軟弱

你的影子在每一個角落

好像是在提醒著我

少了你的陪伴我現在有多寂寞

我想我可以習慣一個人生活

我想我可以假裝不曾愛過

冰涼的夜裡讓眼淚溫熱我

我想我可以習慣一個人生活

在記憶裡面擦去你的承諾

愛情怎麼會是這個結果

我想我可以習慣一個人生活

我想我可以假裝不曾愛過

感覺如果要走誰能說 NO

我想我可以習慣一個人生活

在記憶裡面擦去你的承諾

愛情是個夢而我睡過頭

Kuatkanlah atimu

AnakKu yg t’kasih, Aku hpr x percaya ketika m’bc suratmu. Bknkah br bbrp minggu yg lps engkau b’janji x ak’ m’yerah? Aku tau, mungkin minggu2 ni t’rasa sgt sulit bgmu, tp, anakKu, kuatk’ atimu. Tetaplah b’lari dlm track yg sdh kusediak’ krn Aku tau yg t’baik bgmu. Bila kau m’rasa lelah, b’hentilah sejenak, ambil roti n air idup yg PuteraKu tlh tawark’ n mknlah. Aku yakin stlh kau m’dptk’ keduanya, kau ak’ m’rasa segar kembali. Stlh tu, tarik nafas dlm2 n mulai langkahk’ kakimu tuk b’gerak maju. Fokusk’ pandanganmu pd pa yg da d dpnmu, pd tujuan yg kau miliki, yaitu m’yelasaik’ p’lumbaan n m’jd juara. Buanglah kemarahan n sakit ati yg m’hantui pkiranmu. Amarah n sakit ati tu x gn bgmu, hanya m’guras tenaga n m’hambatmu m’cpi tujuan. T’kdg, Aku m’gijink’ hal2 yg buruk t’jd krn Aku ingin m’latihmu. Aku ingin kaki2mu m’jd lbh kuat drpd sblmnya. Dgn bgtu kau dpt b’lari dgn cepat. B’hentilah m’gasihani dirimu sendiri, b’drlah tegap n pyilah mental sorg pemenang. Sorg pemenang, bkn d’lihat dr brp kali ia sukses meraih gelar juara. D mataKu, sorg pemenang alh sorg yg x pernah m’yerah t’hdp kegagalan, yg mo bangkit stiap kali ia jatuh. Krn tu, jgn pernah m’yerah ketika kau jatuh t’sandung kerikil2 d spjg jlnmu. Jgn m’gacuhk’ omongan org2 yg m’nonton d bangku stadion. Jgn m’rasa sombong krn pujian/ krn kau d’unggulk’. Pujian n p’gagungan yg kuar dr mulut mrk t’kdg hanya s’kdr basa-basi d dpn para juara. X jarang, kata2 manis tu ak’ sgr b’ubah m’jd kritik’ pedas n kecaman ketika para juara tu gagal. Krn tu, kau jg x perlu risau ketika m’dgr p’nyataan2 skeptis yg m’yatak’ kau psti kalah. Kau bkn b’tanding atas kemauan mrk. Kau jg x idup b’dsrk’ omomngan mrk. Pelari yg b’p’galaman tau ak’ hal tu. Krn tu, x usah pusing dgn p’kataan2 mrk. Fokusk’ pkiranmu pd tujuan yg sml, bkn tuk m’dptk’ pujian? P’hargaan dr org lain, tp tuk m’yelesaik’ p’tandingan. Aku, Pelatihmu, x pernah m’raguk’ kemampuan yg kau miliki. Aku tau sbrp bsr potensi yg da pdmu n Aku tau kau psti bias m’cpi garis finish dgn gemilang. Selamat Berjuang anakKu, Aku m’nunggumu di garis finish. Sbb tu, Hai anakKu, jadilah kuat oleh kasih karunia dalam Kristus Yesus. “2 Tim2:1”

Papa

Tuk semua ayah d dunia n special ‘THANKS’ bt Papa. Biasanya, bg sorg anak pompuan yg sdh dewasa, yg b’krj/ yg m’ikuti suaminya m’rantua d luar kota/ luar Negara, yg b’sklh/ kuliah jauh dr k2 org tuanya..ak’ srg m’rasa kanga skl dgn Mamanya. Ll bgimn dgn Papa?? Mungkin krn Mama lbh srg m’nelepon tuk tanya kabarmu stiap ari tp taukah kmu, jika t’tanya Papa lah yg m’ingatk’ Mama tuk m’nelepon kmu?? Mungkin dhl swkt kmu kecil, Mama lah yg srg m’ajak kmu b’ceta/ b’dogeng. Tp taukah kmu, bhw spulang Papa b’krj n dgn wajah lelah Papa sll m’nanya pd Mama ttg kabar kmu n pa yg kmu lakuk’ s’arian? Pd saat kmu msh sorg anak pompuan kecil.. Papa biasanya m’ajari putri kecilnya naik speda. N stlh Papa m’anggap kmu bisa, Papa ak’ mlpsk’ roda bantu d speda kmu.. Kemudian Mama bilang: “Jgn dl Papa, jgn d’lpsk’ dl roda bantunya”, Mama takut putri manisnya t’jatuh ll luka.. Tp sadarkah kmu? Bhw Papa dgn yakin ak’ m’biark’ kmu, m’natap kmu, n m’jaga kmu m’gayuh speda dgn seksama krn dia tau putri kecilnya PSTI BISA! Pd saat kmu m’nangis m’rengek boneka/ mainan br, Mama m’natap kmu.. Tp Papa ak’ m’gatak’ dgn tegas: “Blh kita beli nnt, tp x skrg..” Taukah kmu, Papa m’lakuk’ tu krn Papa x ingin kmu mjd anak yg manja dgn semua tuntutan yg sll dpt d’penuhi.. Saat kmu sakit pula, Papa yg t’ll khawatir spi kdg sedikit m’bentak dgn b’kata: “Sdh d’bilang! Jgn minum air dingin!” B’beda dgn Mama yg m’p’atik’ n m’nasihati kmu dgn lembut. Ketaui, saat tu Papa bnr2 m’khawatir keadaan kmu. Ketika kmu sdh b’anjak remaja…kmu mli tuntut Papa tuk izink’ kmu kuar mlm, n Papa b’sikap tegas n m’gatak’: “X BLH!” Taukah kmu, bhw Papa m’lakuk’ tu tuk m’jaga kmu?? Krn bg Papa kmu alh sst yg sgt2 luar biasa b’harga… Stlh tu kmu marah pd Papa n masuk ke kamar smbl m’banting pintu..N yg dtg m’getok pintu n m’bujuk mku agar x marah alh Mama.. Taukah kmu, bhw saat tu Papa m’mejamk’ matanya n m’nahan gejolak dlm batinya, bhw Papa sgt ingin m’ikuti k’inginan kmu, tp lg2 dia hrs m’jaga kmu…?? Ketika saat sorg cowok mli srg m’nelepon kmu/ bahk’ dtg ke rmh tuk m’nemui kmu, Papa ak’ m’masang wajah plg COOL sedunia... :’) Papa sskl m’guping/ m’gintip saat kmu sdg ngobrol b’2 d ruang tamu.. Sadarkah kmu, klu ati Papa rasa cemburu? Saat mli lbh d’percaya, n Papa m’loggark’ sedikit p’aturan tuk kuar rmh tuk kmu, kmu m’maksa m’langgar jam mlmnya.. Maka yg d’lakuk’ Papa alh duduk d ruang tamu n m’nunggu kmu pulang dgn ati yg sgt khawatir.. N stlh p’rasaan khawatir tu b’larut2.. Ketika m’lihat putrinya pulang larut mlm ati Papa ak’ m‘geras n m’marahi kmu. Sadarkah kmu, bhw ni krn hal yg plg d’takuti Papa ak’ dtg sgr? Bhw putrid kecilnya ak’ sgr p m’ninggalk’ Papa. Stlh lulus SMA, Papa ak’ sedikit m’maksa kmu m’jd sorg Dokter/ Insinyur. Ketauilah, bhw sluruh paksaan yg d’lakuk’ o Papa tu smata2 hanya krn m’mikirk’ masa dpn kmu nnt.. Tp toh Papa tetap t’senyum n m’dukung kmu saat pilihan kmu x suai dgn keiniginan Papa =) Ketika kmu mjd gadis dewasa.. N kmu hrs p kuliah d kota lain.. Papa hrs m’lpsk’ kmu d bandara. Taukah kmu bhw badan Papa t’rasa kaku tuk m’meluk kmu?? Papa hanya bisa t’senyum n m’br nasihat ni-tu, n m’yuruh kmu tuk b’ati2.. Padahal!! Papa ingin skl m’nangis spt Mama n m’meluk kmu erat2.. Yg Papa lakuk’ hanya m’hapus sedikit air mata d sudut matanya, n m’nepuk pundak kmu b’kata: “Jaga diri baik2 ya syg!” Papa lakuk’ tu semua alh agar kmu KUAT.. Kuat tuk p n mjd dewasa. Dsaat kmu m’butuh uang tuk biayai bayaran semester n kehidup kmu, org p’tama yg m’gerutk’ kening alh Papa. Papa psti b’usaha keras m’cr jln agar anaknya bisa m’rasa sm dgn teman2nya yg lain. Ketika p’mintaan kmu bkn lg skdr m’minta boneka br, Papa tau dia x bias m’brk’ yg kmu ingink’.. Kata2 yg kuar dr mulut Papa alh: “X..X Bisa!!” Padahal dlm batin Papa, dia sgt ingin m’gatak’ “Iya syg, nnt Papa belik’ tuk kmu!” Taukah kmu bhw pd saat tu Papa m’rasa gagal m’bt anaknya t’senyum?? Saatnya kmu diwisuda sbgi sorg sarjana. Papa alh org p’tama yg b’dr n m’br tepuk tangan bg kmu. Papa ak’ t’senyum dgn bangga n puas m’lihat putri kecilnya yg x manja b’hasil tumbuh dewasa n tlh mjd ssorg.. Spi saat srg teman laki kmu dtg k rmh n m’minta izin pd Papa tuk m’ambil kmu drnya. Papa ak’ sgt b’hati2 m’brk’ izin..krn Papa tau..bhw laki tu yg ak’ m’gantik’ posisinya kmu nnt.. N akhirnya..saat Papa m’lihat kmu duduk d Panggung Pelaminan b’sm ssorg laki yg d’anggapnya pantas m’gantik’nya, Papa pn t’senyum bahagia.. Apakah kmu m’getaui, d ari yg bahagia tu Papa p k belakang paaggung sbtr n menangis? Papa m’nangis krn Papa sgt bahagia!!! Kemudian, Papa b’doa..dlm lirih doanya kpd Tuhan, Papa b’kata: “Ya Tuhan, tugasku tlh selesai dgn baik..Putriku yg lucu n kucintai tlh mjd wanita yg cntik..Bahagiak’lah dia b’sm suaminya..” Stlh tu Papa hanya bisa m’nunggu kdtgn kmu b’sm cucu2nya yg sskl dtg tuk m’jenguk.. Dgn rambut yg tlh n smkn m’mutih..n badan serta lengan yg x lg kuat tuk m’jaga kmu dr bahaya.. Papa tlh m’yelesaik’ tugasnya. Papa, Ayah, Bapak/ Abah kita..alh sosok yg hrs sll t’lihat kuat.. Bahk’ ketika dia x kuat tuk x m’nangis.. Dia hrs t’lihat tegas bahk’ saat dia ingin m’manjak’ kmu.. N dia alh org p’tama yg sll yakin bhw “KMU BISA” dlm sgl hal =) T’senyum n b’syukurlah ketika kmu bisa m’rasak’ kasih syg sorg Ayah hingga tugasnya selesai.. Jika kmu m’alaminya, Kmu alh salah sorg yg b’untung…

Jika Papa kita d dunia mampu tuk cinta kita dgn kasih sebesar nie.. Apalagi dgn Bapa Kita d syurga...Cinta dan karunianya terlebih jauh besar drpd pa yg dpt kita terima n phami.. Tuhan memberkati kamu dan sekeluargamu..

Thanks Dad, I love you so much..so much..so much... I've learned a lot from you... The greatest lesson I got out of you is the LOVE you shared among us n of course, your love for Mummy... I prayed I could be able to meet someone with characters like yours...