from my Heavenly Father..
I was saved by Him through His amazing grace..
I tried hard to store my treasures in heaven,
trusting that via winning God's favor through deeds is all that about..
God intended nothing as in my mind.. FALSE!! DEFINITELY..
BIBLE clearly stated
"For it is by grace you have been saved,
through faith and this not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God, not by works,
so that no one can boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9)"
sadly.. I completely forgotten of it..
Through the days I had for the past few months..
I admitted that my relationship with God has fall apart..
I wasn't close to God's heart, as I had it before my form 6 life start..
Lord, I've sinned against You and my follow man..
Father, pls forgive me and cleansing me inside out..
that thoughts I owned and deeds I did may glorify You instead of fall-short Your glory..
Life I was in now isn't an easy course for me,
yet I knew I wasn't never face it alone and not bare to attractions..
You are so close by my side..
just that my eyes blinded by sin and my heart harden by harsh words and accuses of others..
God, I have to confess I'm too weak..though I went through lot and lots of up and down..
but it never makes me perfect, in case, it can solely teach me lessons..
I'm lost and I'm afraid.. I wanna go home..
back to the home where peace and happiness all was kept there..
There.. I found my shelter.. no more offences..
I'm set free.. bound and enchained by responsibility..
it tie me til I'm breathless...
But.. should I just give up..without harder efforts..
Your daughter..I.. what should I do??
We are merely human with flaws.. will forgiveness and toleration vary our path??
